April 5, 2009

I had a really great weekend spending time with my extended family. My mom turns 60 on the 8th of this month and we had a fun time celebrating her. My siblings from CO came to WI and it is always so great to see them. So, even though it was a weekend for my mom ... I guess I am going to make this entry still about me! ;p

In our society, as many of you know, events like this always have food! So they are always a bit problematic for me. My sister Cat consumes a diet that is similar to my pre-surgery diet. (By the way, she is gorgeous!). She gave me some new ideas of things that I could make and take to parties and still eat them! :) I decided to skip even my token bite of cake. My sister Ann made a really delicious Chicken soup; but it did have rice, potatoes, peas and I think corn in it. I am not supposed to eat any starches with this diet. I had a cup of it and it was really amazing, but for this party ... that was my dessert!

My siblings and parents are being very supportive. They wondered though why I would still pursue the surgery since I have been so successful losing weight with the pre-surgery diet. Actually a few others have wondered that as well. I don't have a great answer for this. I think my desire to continue with the process is partly fear and partly impatience. I don't want to give up and potentially keep the yo-yo process going. I feel foolish saying this, because I am very aware that eating healthy is a choice. I guess I have been struggling with this for so long that I just can't help but worry a bit. The impatience part, of course, is related to the hernia. I just want the weight off as quickly as possible so I can get it repaired once and for all! On the other hand, I really do need to have some questions answered about how we are going to check on my stomach down the road. Although it would be nice to be thin again, my true goal is to be healthy!